32 weeks with TWINS!

How far along? 32 weeks, 3 days. 8 MONTHS! I cannot believe how fast this pregnancy is going. We only have four more weekends until we have our new little babies with us. 

Size of baby: Creux weighs 3 lbs. 9 oz. and Callie Dee weighs 3 lbs. 13 oz. 

Total weight gain this month:  I have gained 5 more pounds this month. So, total weight gain is 30 pounds. I'm actually impressed. I was expecting to gain much more and for my belly to be much bigger than it is. I still have five weeks to go so we will see. 

Maternity clothes? Absolutely. Dresses on repeat.  

Sleep: Horrendous. Absolutely horrendous. If I'm not up with heart burn from hell or serious pain in my belly (which I thought was Braxton Hicks, but apparently it's dehydration- according to my doc) then I just canNOT get comfortable. I remember not getting much sleep while pregnant with Croix but this time around it's been brought to a whole new level of exhaustion. 

Best moment this month: I got to see the babies at a sonogram appointment. That is always my favorite moment. I love seeing them move around in there. 

Queasy or sick: No sickness or queasiness but like I mentioned above the heart burn is off the charts. I have recently identified one of the foods that causes my heart burn and you're never going to believe it: CHOCOLATE. What the ____! CHOCOLATE!? ….sometimes I still eat it and just suffer the out of control consequence afterwards. 

Miss Anything: S-L-E-E-P! 

Food cravings: I am craving Ahi tuna from outback dipped in that green goodness of a sauce they have on the side. John orders it every time we go and when I ask for just "onnneeeeeeeee bite" he all of a sudden cares about me not eating what is bad for me during pregnancy. BUT, we alllllllll know it's because he doesn't want to share and this is the perfect way for him to get it all to himself. So, now on my list of things for friends to bring to the hospital while visiting the twins: raw sushi, ahi tuna and a Blue Moon (with a fresh orange). Thank you.  

Looking forward to: I am looking forward to some quality time as a family of three these last few weeks.

I went to my first non stress test this past week. This is where they strap three monitors on me. One on each baby to monitor the heart beat and then one to monitor if I have any contractions. I have what looks like a detonator in my hand and I am asked to press it every time the babies move. Needless to say, I was pressing it a lot. The test lasts about twenty minutes and I get to sit in this vintage recliner with my legs propped up. It's actually comfortable…going two times a week won't be that bad after all. Well…here's where my first appointment starts to get AWKWARD (as usual…right?) ….

While the nurses are strapping me up to the monitors I asked when I have to start getting "CHECKED" ….you know….THE.CHECK? The check where I have to hoist my legs up in the stirrups and allow my doctor to stick his whole arm hand inside of me to see if I am dilating. I thought for sure since I was having twins that I didn't need to get checked because they monitor me so closely (wishful thinking, I know). Well, the good news? Her response: "Yes, but not today. He will probably start doing that around week 35". The feeling that went through my body was like no other. I felt so relieved. You don't understand what these checks do to me. Let me get you a visual: imagine your annual exam (no one likes someone that close up in your business…plus it's sorta painful). Now, imagine your annual exam x10: you're big, bloated, feeling gross, not cleanly groomed because you can't reach anything past your armpits, and just all around disgusting down there because the truth is things come out of your vagina when you are pregnant that don't typically come out when you aren't. I'm sorry to be so graphic but I need you to be on my level so you can understand why I despise these so much. 

Fast forward to the end of my first non stress test. My doctor comes in and reviews the test. He looks over at me and our conversation went a little something like this:

Doc: "do you feel that?"

Me: "feel what?!"

Doc: "you are having contractions"

Me: "WHAT! no I don't feel anything"

Doc: "Ok, well that's good that you aren't feeling them but I need to check you out to make sure these contractions aren't leading to your cervix thinning".

Me: "Wait. You mean "check" me? But the nurse told me that you don't have to start doing that until 35 weeks. I'm only 32. I hate being checked. Are you sure you have to do that?"

Doc: (With a strange look) "Yes, I do have to. I am worried that these may cause pre term labor and I want to make sure. I'm just being cautious. Get up in this chair, put the gown on and I will go and get the nurse". 

Me:  (Whining) "I really don't want to do this". 

Doc: (Ignored me…walked out to get the nurse).

I take my clothes off, put that paper gown on and prepare for the most unconformable situation. The fact that I wasn't expecting/prepared for it made it 100x worse. The doc comes back in and asks me to put my feet up and scoot down (you know the drill). He's in there checking me (I'm holding my hands over my eyes like a 5 year old about to cry and baring down with all my might). All of a sudden his cell phone starts to ring and what does he do?????????? HE ANSWERS IT! W-H-A-T!? Here I am, spread eagle, in stirrups, looking awkwardly at the nurse while the doc carries on a phone convo! I couldn't believe it. He just took this appointment to a whole new level. About 30 seconds goes by (but it feels like 5 minutes with my legs spread wide open for bacteria to enter) and he hangs up and says "sorry about that", scoots his chair back over to me and then proceeds with "the check". Wow. 

Results: I wasn't dilating. Thank goodness because these babies need to cook more. By my pupils probably were because I couldn't believe my eyes. Why do things like this happen to me? Or is it just that it happens to others but they don't share this type of info? 

Good news: I'll be back in two weeks. I want to take pictures more often since I don't know when I will deliver. 

28 weeks with TWINS!

How far along? 28 weeks, 2 days. 7 MONTHS! Wow. Time is flying by for me!

Size of baby: Baby boy is weighing in at 2lbs. 2 oz. and Baby girl in at 2lbs. 5 oz. According to the doctor both babies are doing great and growing right on track. 

Total weight gain this month:  Well, I can tell you that his belly is pop, lock and droppin'! I know it doesn't look big in this picture and I can't tell you the amount of times that people tell me I look "small for carrying twins" but I feel LARGE and IN CHARGE! This month I have gained 7 pounds (2 of which are actual baby…so can we subtract those two pounds? haha). Total weight gain this pregnancy: 25 pounds. I'd say that is pretty decent but I won't jinx myself because I really packed on the lbs towards the end of my pregnancy with Croix. I have a feeling that is going to happen this time around as well. 

Maternity clothes? All about the maternity clothes. I can wear my regular jeans with my belly band but it's so hot outside. I have basically been living in dresses. 

Sleep: CRAPPY!! I have heart burn like a fat girl and cannot get comfortable at night. It's the worst. Sometimes, I am so tired and angry that I cannot fall asleep that I will just lay in bed and cry. Tell me you have done that before. So mature, right? Exhaustion has gotten the best of me lately. 

Best moment this month: Last week I got to see the babies on a sonogram. That is always my best moment. They are so adorable. Another great moment…we announced the twin's names. Creux Benjamin (pronounced Crew) & Callie Dee. Benjamin is John's middle name and Dee is after Dolores (John always called his Mom "D"). Callie is constantly kicking Creux and she tosses and turns like crazy women in my belly. Creux is extremely camera shy (we are never able to get a good photo of him) and is nestling down as far as he can get to steer clear of his crazy kicking sister. 

Queasy or sick: No sickness this month. Praise the lord. The only bad symptoms I am dealing with is the heart burn that I mentioned above and back aches. Carrying two babies around is no joke. It's an extreme work out…that is for damn sure. I underestimated all the warnings my fellow twin Mommas gave me. 

Miss Anything: I was craving beer the other day. I don't even like beer. 

Food cravings: Sushi is still at the top of the list. When these babies are born I am expecting someone to deliver the rawest sushi you can get with a big glass of Blue Moon. 

Looking forward to: I am looking forward to ending this school year (one more week) and spending all my free time this summer with Croix. I plan on spoiling him rotten. I did make some progress in the nursery (thanks to Kristen) but I am looking forward to getting some free time to shop for the rest of the items I need to complete that room and get it completely ready for C & C. Next on the list is to take over the "man room" and turn it into a play room. Poor John. 

At this point in my pregnancy I will be visiting the doctor every 2 weeks for a check up. Once I hit 35 weeks I will go every week for a check up. The doc says he will not let me delivery past 7/30/15 so the babies will definitely be here by then. I'm still up in the air about whether to try for a natural delivery (and by that I mean vaginal…NOT without meds) or go for a c section. My biggest fears for delivering via vag would be that after one baby comes out I would either A: be too exhausted to deliver the second or B: something happens and I get rushed into an emergency c section to deliver the second baby and have to recover from BOTH horrific procedures. Honestly. I don't know what I am going to opt for at this moment. I want to do what is going to be the safest for them. I am hoping that I will just have a gut feeling when the date gets closer and just do that my heart tells me what would be best and safest option. Either option I choose is going to scare the crap out of me due to what happened the last time with Croix (See his birth story and the post about going back to the hospital at 6 weeks postpartum because placenta was left inside of me---causing me to nearly DIE, literally). 

One more more thing… you know what's coming up dontcha?! THE DREADED "CHECKS"!!!!! See previous blog posts about those too. Nooooot fun when someone sticks their fingers arm inside of your vagina to see if you are dilating or not. I would like to skip that part this time. Think they would go for that? 

I think I will be taking photos more often (possibly every 2 weeks) and updating the blog more frequently. On average twins are born around 35 weeks. It makes me so nervous not knowing exactly when they are coming. If we were only having one child I would be certain that I would have to evict them like I did Croix. But, twins are a whole new ball game. If I deliver before 35 weeks the twins would be considered premie and we would have to deliver at Winnie Palmer because of the NICU unit (praying that doesn't happen). If they come after 35 weeks (considered "term" with twins) I would be able to deliver at Celebration (praying this DOES happen). 

Here are two adorable pictures for your viewing: 

Callie @ 28 weeks

Creux @ 28 weeks

24 weeks with TWINS!

How far along? 24 weeks, 2 days. 6 MONTHS! Can you believe that? It sure is flying by. 

Size of baby: According to my weekly pregnancy app the twins are the size of an ear of corn! 

Total weight gain this month:  In two weeks I gained 7 pounds. Total weight gain so far is 12 pounds. My belly has really popped this month. We go back to the doctor on Thursday so I am sure you could probably add another 15  5 or so pounds to that total weight gain so far :)  I looked back at my 24 week blog while pregnant with Croix and how crazy that up until that point I had only gained 6 pounds. So, two babies this time, double the weight at 12 pounds. I'd say I'm right on track!

Maternity clothes? I bought a pair of maternity shorts and jeans. THE most comfortable things I have ever slipped my belly into. I'm sad that I didn't fully embrace my belly when I was pregnant with Croix. I let this belly show its true colors---loud and proud!! It's poking out all the time. If it was socially acceptable to cut a hole in all of my shirts and let my stretch marks show I would totally be down for doing that. There is just something about letting your belly feel free that makes you feel so, SO much more comfortable. Trying to squeeze this thing in none maternity shirts or jeans is just not cutting it any longer. BRING ON THE MOO MOO's!! 

Sleep: Sleep is decent. I am waking up more frequently to use the bathroom. It's also a real doozy to hoist my up belly from one side to the other. I feel like a whale out of water when I am trying to switch sides and get comfortable. 

Best moment this month: 2 things: 1. Taking Croix to Disney World for the first time. My Mom and I took Croix to Disney and it was the absolute best time. I now understand why they say it's the most "magical" place on earth. I definitely wasn't a fan of Disney until I took Croix there for the first time. Having kids truly changes your perspective on everything. I had some tickets that a parent at school had given me. I knew I wanted to take Croix before the twins were born because let's face it…if I didn't take him before they arrived it would be another 2 years before he would ever be able to go. I'm so glad I did!! He had THE most wonderful time. He loved every ride with Dumbo being his favorite. He was so patient in the lines and my heart was so full when we were leaving the park that day. I want to remember that day forever. It was perfect. 2: Starting on the nursery. The cribs arrived and John (with the help of Croix of course) put them together. Things are coming along and its making me a little less stressed. I have bedding and some decor to buy but once everything is put together I will be sure to post pictures. 

Queasy or sick: I had a couple of relapse days this month (getting sick in the mornings). Other than that I am happy to report that I am feeling great! This is my favorite stage of pregnancy. Just embracing the belly and enjoying every moment. I really do love being pregnant (even though the beginning really stinks for me).

Genders: Still one of each :) Probably should take this question out because that isn't going to change. 

Miss Anything: Update: Don't tell anyone but I had a cold cut sandwich. It was so delicious---up until the very last bite. Most things are okay in moderation, right!? I also miss bending over and walking more than 5 steps without being out of breath. Three more months of waddling around feeling like a cow. 

Food cravings: I've been craving Sushi. John made tuna steak the other night and ate it right in front of me. Rude!

Looking forward to: Right now I am looking forward to ending this school year and spending the summer with my baby boy. There are days that I get tears in my eyes thinking about how much his life is going to change. He will be 22 months when the twins arrive. He won't be old enough to realize why Mama is having to split her time between him and the new babies. Somedays I feel guilty for wanting to have my children so close together but I keep reminding myself that being able to give Croix a brother and a sister is a blessing. A blessing that I am so very grateful for. I pray every night that he adjusts well. I know with time everything will work out and that he will adjust to having a 'new normal'. So, this summer I plan to spoil him rotten and let him eat all the "nacks" he wants to eat and do whatever he asks to do!

Here is our little man at Disney:

 And this is the face of the sweetest little boy yelling "byeeee" to everyone on the tram leaving the park. I'm so lucky he is mine.

20 weeks with TWINS!

How far along? 20 weeks, 2 days.

Size of baby: Mangos! Baby A (Boy) is weighing in at 8 ounces and Baby B (girl) is weighing in at 7 ounces.

Total weight gain this month:  This month I gained another 2 pounds. Total weight gain is 5 pounds.

Maternity clothes? Maternity dresses all day, everyday. I am so sad I didn't embrace my belly while pregnant with Croix. 

Sleep: Sleep is going so wonderful and I hope it stays this way for a very long time. I am having no problems getting comfortable and sleeping all through the night…with the occasional bathroom break. 

Best moment this month:  Seeing our little babies at the hour and a half anatomy scan sonogram. More on that below. 

Queasy or sick: I am SO VERY HAPPY to report that I am NOT throwing up any longer. When I wake up in the morning I am queazy for about 5 mintues but once I move about I feel totally fine. Can I get an AMEN on that?! Being sick with a toddler to chase around is the absolute worst. I am so thankful we are passed that stage. Update: I talked with my doctor about the Zofran commercials I was seeing. Without going into too much boring details, he made me feel so much better about my decision to take the meds. The benefits of taking the meds (keeping food and water down so my babies are able to grow and get nutrition) out weighs the risks. He informed me that everything has risks…even the tylenol you take when you have a headache. The lawsuits are mainly for pregnant women taking a much higher dose than I was prescribed. And after seeing how perfectly healthy our babies are growing at the anatomy scan last week, I am confident that they are going to be just fine. 

Genders: We confirmed the genders (although we didn't have any doubt) this month. One BOY (Baby A) and one GIRL (Baby B). The Boy is considered Baby A because he is closest to the woo-ha cervix.

Miss Anything: Cold cut sandwiches…like crazy. Like….for REAL crazy. 

Food cravings: Over spring break Croix and I ate at Fat Boys 4 times. So I think it's safe to say I was craving BBQ this past month. 

Looking forward to: I am really looking forward to getting the twins nursery put together. We ordered the cribs and they should be here in a couple of weeks. I feel like I am behind with buying things for their nursery and that thought gives me anxiety. Once the cribs arrive, it's go time!! We have to clean out the "man room" and turn it into the kids (crazy that I get to say that…kidS) room. We have a lot of preparing to do for these two new babies. ONLY 4 MORE MONTHS TO GO!

We had our anatomy scan on March 24 and it was such a wonderful appointment  I always get excited to see our babies on the sonogram but this was like watching them on a movie. We saw every bone (literally, every bone) in each baby's body. It was the neatest thing to watch. While the nurse was scanning baby Boy we kept seeing a hand or foot pop into the screen….it was baby girl! She is a feisty little thing. She is taking up the most room and hitting and kicking her brother constantly. The doctor came in and told us that the babies look perfect which made me feel so relieved (since the scare of the Zofran). We will go back to this doctor a couple more times before the twins arrive and we are looking forward to it. The nurse there is MUCH more friendly than "Mrs. P" (as mentioned in the first twin post). 

Here are some profile pictures of the twinkies for you. They are just as cute as can be. 

(Baby Girl)

(Baby Boy)

Here is a little collage our photographer put together for us from the gender reveal: 

(Aimee Junnila Photography).

16 weeks with TWINS.

How far along? 16 weeks, 2 days (Most of these pictures will be two days behind because my photographer this time around- John- can only take pictures on Saturday's). 

Size of baby: Around the size of avocados. At the gender reveal we did learn that Baby B is bigger than Baby A.

Total weight gain this month:  I have gained 2 pounds as of my last doctor's visit (which was a couple of weeks ago so I am sure I am around 4+ pounds at this point). 

Maternity clothes? Absolutely. I do still wear my regular jeans…with the belly band of course. 

Sleep: I haven't had any problems sleeping this past month. In fact, I am so tired at the end of the day that I am out like a light when my head hits the pillow. 

Best moment this month:  FINDING OUT THE GENDERS!! (See below)

Queasy or sick: Sad news. I am still sick. I figured it would be gone by now. And here is a little story for ya: Last week I was browsing Facebook and noticed this advertisement about Zofran (the nausea medicine I am (or was) taking). I clicked on the link (and did further google searching) and found out that lawyers are advertising that Zofran has been linked to birth defects. I of course start to panic and called my Doctor's office first thing in the morning. The nurse informed me that it very well could be false advertisement and also that I should not worry because all of my genetic testing has come back negative. She then mentions that if there is any truth to the lawsuits they are referring to the Zofran given through IV (which I DID have when I went into the hospital for dehydration at 10 weeks). When I mentioned that to her she again reassured me that I shouldn't worry and that everything is going to be fine. How does she know? She can't be sure. I can't stop thinking about it. So, clearly I stopped taking the medicine and I am back to puking in the mornings and occasionally throughout the day. 

Genders: ONE BOY ….AND ONE GIRL!!! Can you believe it? We were SO SO SO SO EXCITED!!!  We are thrilled that Croix will have a little brother AND a little sister. 

Miss Anything: Not really.  

Food cravings: Taco bell. Crunchy AND hard tacos. 

Looking forward to: We have an anatomy scan on 3/23. We have been told that this sonogram will take about 2 hours----no complaining here!! If I could I would rent one of those machines and keep it at my house!!  (oh- and shopping for baby girl clothes!!!)

 

12 weeks with TWINS!

Good news and sad news: I'm back with the maternity posts but I will only be doing them monthly (with a few random posts thrown in-between so be sure to check back often). 

How far along? 12 weeks, 2 days.

Size of baby: A large plum…but I've heard that twins grow at a faster rate so I'm guessing they are a tad bit bigger at this point.  

Total weight gain this month:  I've lost a total of 6.5 pounds since finding out we were pregnant. This is because up until a week ago I haven't been able to keep any food or liquid down (more on that below). 

Maternity clothes? WHY, OH WHY DIDN'T I WEAR MATERNITY CLOTHES WITH CROIX? And why didn't anyone tell me how much more comfy they are? I am barley poppin' and I'm wearing maternity shirts. I haven't made it to the jeans yet….but I have a feeling they are going to be coming sooner rather than later. 

Stretch marks? Well….no new ones yet but if I had to take a wild guess….I bet I will get double what I got last time and I'm ok with that. I'm still sportin' the ones from Croix's pregnancy. Loud and proud, my friends!

Sleep: The first 11 weeks of pregnancy were a doozy. I couldn't get comfortable in my bed. I would wake up and get sick and then have to try to get comfortable all over again. I'm so glad we are past that stage. 

Best moment this month:  Finding out that we were expecting TWO instead of ONE!!! 

Queasy or sick: ABSOLUTELY SICK! This pregnancy was WAY worse in the "morning sickness" department. I was definitely sick with Croix but my meds worked. I have been prescribed 5 different meds this time and NONE of them work successfully. I am currently taking Zofran and that seems to help the best. The first 11 weeks landed me a trip to the hospital.I was treated for dehydration. They gave me Zofran through and IV, a bag of fluids, a cup of water and a bag of gold fish (not kidding). It was the best decision we ever made. I was so reluctant to go but I physically could not get out of bed. I couldn't drink or eat without getting sick within minutes and that is no exaggeration. I was pale, losing weight and feeling useless. I was also feeling guilty because John was mostly taking care of Croix and I would spend my days laying in bed, sleeping. Sleeping was the only way to pass the time without throwing up. I am pleased to say that for the past week and a half I have been able to eat (random things) and I am getting back into my regular routine. I do feel queasy about an hour before my next dose of Zofran but that is NOTHING compared to what I was before. I am just so very thankful to be past that stage (and hopefully it doesn't return). 

Genders: We have an appointment on Feb. 21 but we are waiting to do a little reveal with the family (like we did with Croix) on March 1. We have just about a month left. I'm sure you can image the anxiety we are going through. John and I honestly do not care about the genders. We would love two boys, two girls, or one of each. We just feel so blessed to be able to carry two. 

Miss Anything: Not yet. 

Food cravings: I don't know if the cravings are ever going to set in this time around. Food is such a turn off for me. The other night, I had two ice cream cones for dinner. TWO. And I justified that with "one for each baby". Totally acceptable, right? John makes dinner most nights for him and Croix.  

Looking forward to: Seeing the babies on the sonogram next Wednesday, asking the doctor 1,000 more questions and of course the GENDER REVEAL! 

You  guys, I still cannot wrap my head around the fact that we are going to have TWO babies. I am so stinkin' excited about this. We are due August 21, 2015 but it's very possible that we could have them before that. This pregnancy has consumed my thoughts. I'm ready to find out the genders, decorate the nursery and for Croix to become a big brother! How cute is he going to be with these babies?! I CAN'T WAIT. Literally….I cannot wait. This time better fly by. 

I'm back with EXCITING news!!

I am so excited to announce that we are pregnant!! 

I am even more excited to announce that we are pregnant with TWINS!!!

Go ahead and re-read that last line. Yes, we are having TWINS! We are just as shocked as you are right now.

Let me first start by backing up about five months.

John and I always knew we wanted our kids close together (yes, even this close). We also knew that we wanted three children. These two things were non-negotiables. So, about a month before Croix turned one, I went back to the doctor's office to see about getting back on the medicine I was prescribed when I was trying to get pregnant with him. This medicine is called Letrozole. It's a medicine that causes you to ovulate (which I typically do not do on my own). The doctor told me at this appointment that I was not allowed to take it due to breastfeeding Croix. So, we knew we had about a month left until I could go back to the doctors. I always had plans to cut Croix off of breastfeeding on his first birthday (which surprisingly was not hard). I made an appointment with the doctor and was prescribed the Letrozole at the beginning of October 2014. I was really excited about it this time around because I thought my body would be used to the medicine and I would get pregnant on the first time. I was wrong. I took a pregnancy test the first chance possible and it was the biggest let down to see that negative sign. I had really high hopes which made the bad news even worse. I took the medicine again in November 2014. This time I thought to myself "this is it! It's definitely going to happen this time. I got pregnant with Croix on the second round of Letrolze and I just know it's going to be the same this time". It came time to take the pregnancy test and ….negative, again. I think I went into a tiny bit of depression. A week went by and I hadn't started my period and everyday that I was late on my period was a day that I had to push back my next round of medicine. I even went as far to call the nurse and ask for a different medicine that would jump start my period. I was desperate. She told me "I really don't feel comfortable doing that Cassey. Let's wait another week. If you don't get your period in another week, call me back". I hung up with her and kept praying that my period would come. It was getting to the point where I was excited to go to the bathroom. I was looking forward to wiping and seeing the blood. I'm so strange, aren't I? So around day 7 of my missed period (Thursday, December 18, 2014, to be exact) John and I were sitting at our dining table. I told him that my next round of Letrozole had to be pushed back because my period just wasn't coming. John and I did a special "diet" called the Whole30. I thought that since I lost 15 pounds it had some effect on my menstrual cycle. He said "just take another pregnancy test". My exact response "well, I do have another one but it's going to say negative…but I'll take it I guess" (in my whiny voice). We continued on with our nightly routine putting Croix to bed and getting ready for the next day. I got in the shower and when I got out I pulled out the last pregnancy test in the box. I literally thought to myself "this is such a waste of an expensive pregnancy test" right before I peed on it…but I did it anyway. I peed on the test, set it aside, wiped and flushed. As I was pulling up my pants I looked over at the test that was sitting on the side of the tub and my heart skipped a beat or two. I said out loud "oh my God!" and rushed out into the living room. I was trying to yell "I AM PREGNANT!!" to John who was watching TV but the words wouldn't come out of my mouth. My eyes were about to pop out of my head and once I was able to speak I walked right up to his recliner and said "IM PREGNANT!!" His response: "what?????" I said "YES!!! IT'S POSITIVE!!!" I was so shocked. I was so dead set on this month not being our time and having to wait even longer. I started to cry and John asked why. I said "I haven't been taking my prenatal vitamins and drinking water like I should be". He started laughing at me and said "imagine the people who don't know they are pregnant for months! You're only a week behind". For the next couple of hours we sat in silence and every hour or so we said "I cannot believe it! Can you believe it!??!" At this point I was five weeks pregnant.

Fast forward to a couple of days after I we found out. The sickness started. I was not excited about this as I was so sick with Croix. The good news about my sickness with Croix was that the medicine I was prescribed for nausea worked like a charm. This time around…not so much. I tried four different medications and still throw up on with of them. Morning sickness is no joke. Especially if it's an all day sickness.

Ok, so now you are caught up!

Yesterday, Wednesday January 14, 2015, we had our first ultrasound. The ultrasound sound you have a 8 weeks (even though we had ours at 9 weeks) when you get to hear the heart beat for the first time. John met me at the doctors office. We left Croix at Ms. Tina's because this particular appointment was scheduled right during his second nap time. John and I were feeling excited but we both knew exactly what to expect. After all, we've had done this before.

The Sonogram lady (who I refer to as Ms. Personality….totally sarcastic, by the way) called us back to her dark little room. I laid on the chair and John and I both had our phones ready to record the heart beat. John and I were anxiously watching the TV monitor. While she is rubbing the monitor over my belly we had a small conversation and it went a little something like this:

We will refer to her a Ms. P (for personality).

Mrs. P:  "Did you do any infertility?"

Me: (probably rudely because I was so caught off guard with that question) "No…??"

Mrs. P: "Did you take anything with this pregnancy?"

Me: "Um….yes……."

Mrs. P: "Clomid?"

Me: "Yes" …(even though I meant No! But I know Letrozole and Clomid are very similar)

Mrs. P: "Oh! That explains it"

Me: "How can you tell I took that?" (At this point I thought something was wrong and I was starting to panic)

Mrs. P: (As nonchalant as she possibly could be) "There are two in there".

Me & John: (In unison) "WHAT!!!!!"

Mrs. P: Dead silence

Me & John: "WHAT!!!"

Mrs. P: "Yep, there's two babies. That's common with Clomid". (Which no, it is not).

Me & John: (for the rest of the time we are in that room) "Oh my God! Are you Serious? WHAT? Oh my God, Are we being Punked? No wonder I have been so sick and my meds aren't working"…etc, etc, etc.

She did crack a smile when I asked if we were being "Punked".

Sadly, we didn't even record the heart beat. I'm sure you can understand why.

We left Mrs. Personality and went back out into the waiting room. We kept looking at each other and smiling, then laughing and throwing around a couple more "Oh my God's". To say we were in complete shock would be a HUGE understatement.

We met with Doctor Lemeret and he answered all (1,000) of our questions. He informed us that these twins are due to genetics (not the medicine I was taking).

These babies are due anytime between Mid July- beginning of August 2015.

We are elated. We are nervous. We are blessed. 

We are so excited for Croix.

It's only been one day since we heard so we are still as shocked as ever.

Thank you God for these two babies.

I am sad to say that I will not be doing weekly updates this time around. It's just too much work while taking care of Croix. I will however commit to monthly posts. I've got to be fair to these babies. They need a pregnancy journey book just like big brother. I'm so excited to be blogging again. I hope you are ready for some more posts.

TWIN. BABY. MOONS!

Here they are...