Sunday, June 28, 2015

32 weeks with TWINS!


How far along? 32 weeks, 3 days. 8 MONTHS! I cannot believe how fast this pregnancy is going. We only have four more weekends until we have our new little babies with us. 

Size of baby: Creux weighs 3 lbs. 9 oz. and Callie Dee weighs 3 lbs. 13 oz. 

Total weight gain this month:  I have gained 5 more pounds this month. So, total weight gain is 30 pounds. I'm actually impressed. I was expecting to gain much more and for my belly to be much bigger than it is. I still have five weeks to go so we will see. 

Maternity clothes? Absolutely. Dresses on repeat.  

Sleep: Horrendous. Absolutely horrendous. If I'm not up with heart burn from hell or serious pain in my belly (which I thought was Braxton Hicks, but apparently it's dehydration- according to my doc) then I just canNOT get comfortable. I remember not getting much sleep while pregnant with Croix but this time around it's been brought to a whole new level of exhaustion. 

Best moment this month: I got to see the babies at a sonogram appointment. That is always my favorite moment. I love seeing them move around in there. 

Queasy or sick: No sickness or queasiness but like I mentioned above the heart burn is off the charts. I have recently identified one of the foods that causes my heart burn and you're never going to believe it: CHOCOLATE. What the ____! CHOCOLATE!? ….sometimes I still eat it and just suffer the out of control consequence afterwards. 

Miss Anything: S-L-E-E-P! 

Food cravings: I am craving Ahi tuna from outback dipped in that green goodness of a sauce they have on the side. John orders it every time we go and when I ask for just "onnneeeeeeeee bite" he all of a sudden cares about me not eating what is bad for me during pregnancy. BUT, we alllllllll know it's because he doesn't want to share and this is the perfect way for him to get it all to himself. So, now on my list of things for friends to bring to the hospital while visiting the twins: raw sushi, ahi tuna and a Blue Moon (with a fresh orange). Thank you.  

Looking forward to: I am looking forward to some quality time as a family of three these last few weeks.

I went to my first non stress test this past week. This is where they strap three monitors on me. One on each baby to monitor the heart beat and then one to monitor if I have any contractions. I have what looks like a detonator in my hand and I am asked to press it every time the babies move. Needless to say, I was pressing it a lot. The test lasts about twenty minutes and I get to sit in this vintage recliner with my legs propped up. It's actually comfortable…going two times a week won't be that bad after all. Well…here's where my first appointment starts to get AWKWARD (as usual…right?) ….

While the nurses are strapping me up to the monitors I asked when I have to start getting "CHECKED" ….you know….THE.CHECK? The check where I have to hoist my legs up in the stirrups and allow my doctor to stick his whole arm hand inside of me to see if I am dilating. I thought for sure since I was having twins that I didn't need to get checked because they monitor me so closely (wishful thinking, I know). Well, the good news? Her response: "Yes, but not today. He will probably start doing that around week 35". The feeling that went through my body was like no other. I felt so relieved. You don't understand what these checks do to me. Let me get you a visual: imagine your annual exam (no one likes someone that close up in your business…plus it's sorta painful). Now, imagine your annual exam x10: you're big, bloated, feeling gross, not cleanly groomed because you can't reach anything past your armpits, and just all around disgusting down there because the truth is things come out of your vagina when you are pregnant that don't typically come out when you aren't. I'm sorry to be so graphic but I need you to be on my level so you can understand why I despise these so much. 

Fast forward to the end of my first non stress test. My doctor comes in and reviews the test. He looks over at me and our conversation went a little something like this:

Doc: "do you feel that?"
Me: "feel what?!"
Doc: "you are having contractions"
Me: "WHAT! no I don't feel anything"
Doc: "Ok, well that's good that you aren't feeling them but I need to check you out to make sure these contractions aren't leading to your cervix thinning".
Me: "Wait. You mean "check" me? But the nurse told me that you don't have to start doing that until 35 weeks. I'm only 32. I hate being checked. Are you sure you have to do that?"
Doc: (With a strange look) "Yes, I do have to. I am worried that these may cause pre term labor and I want to make sure. I'm just being cautious. Get up in this chair, put the gown on and I will go and get the nurse". 
Me:  (Whining) "I really don't want to do this". 
Doc: (Ignored me…walked out to get the nurse).

I take my clothes off, put that paper gown on and prepare for the most unconformable situation. The fact that I wasn't expecting/prepared for it made it 100x worse. The doc comes back in and asks me to put my feet up and scoot down (you know the drill). He's in there checking me (I'm holding my hands over my eyes like a 5 year old about to cry and baring down with all my might). All of a sudden his cell phone starts to ring and what does he do?????????? HE ANSWERS IT! W-H-A-T!? Here I am, spread eagle, in stirrups, looking awkwardly at the nurse while the doc carries on a phone convo! I couldn't believe it. He just took this appointment to a whole new level. About 30 seconds goes by (but it feels like 5 minutes with my legs spread wide open for bacteria to enter) and he hangs up and says "sorry about that", scoots his chair back over to me and then proceeds with "the check". Wow. 

Results: I wasn't dilating. Thank goodness because these babies need to cook more. By my pupils probably were because I couldn't believe my eyes. Why do things like this happen to me? Or is it just that it happens to others but they don't share this type of info? 

Good news: I'll be back in two weeks. I want to take pictures more often since I don't know when I will deliver. 

Monday, June 1, 2015

28 weeks with TWINS!



How far along? 28 weeks, 2 days. 7 MONTHS! Wow. Time is flying by for me!

Size of baby: Baby boy is weighing in at 2lbs. 2 oz. and Baby girl in at 2lbs. 5 oz. According to the doctor both babies are doing great and growing right on track. 

Total weight gain this month:  Well, I can tell you that his belly is pop, lock and droppin'! I know it doesn't look big in this picture and I can't tell you the amount of times that people tell me I look "small for carrying twins" but I feel LARGE and IN CHARGE! This month I have gained 7 pounds (2 of which are actual baby…so can we subtract those two pounds? haha). Total weight gain this pregnancy: 25 pounds. I'd say that is pretty decent but I won't jinx myself because I really packed on the lbs towards the end of my pregnancy with Croix. I have a feeling that is going to happen this time around as well. 

Maternity clothes? All about the maternity clothes. I can wear my regular jeans with my belly band but it's so hot outside. I have basically been living in dresses. 

Sleep: CRAPPY!! I have heart burn like a fat girl and cannot get comfortable at night. It's the worst. Sometimes, I am so tired and angry that I cannot fall asleep that I will just lay in bed and cry. Tell me you have done that before. So mature, right? Exhaustion has gotten the best of me lately. 

Best moment this month: Last week I got to see the babies on a sonogram. That is always my best moment. They are so adorable. Another great moment…we announced the twin's names. Creux Benjamin (pronounced Crew) & Callie Dee. Benjamin is John's middle name and Dee is after Dolores (John always called his Mom "D"). Callie is constantly kicking Creux and she tosses and turns like crazy women in my belly. Creux is extremely camera shy (we are never able to get a good photo of him) and is nestling down as far as he can get to steer clear of his crazy kicking sister. 

Queasy or sick: No sickness this month. Praise the lord. The only bad symptoms I am dealing with is the heart burn that I mentioned above and back aches. Carrying two babies around is no joke. It's an extreme work out…that is for damn sure. I underestimated all the warnings my fellow twin Mommas gave me. 

Miss Anything: I was craving beer the other day. I don't even like beer. 

Food cravings: Sushi is still at the top of the list. When these babies are born I am expecting someone to deliver the rawest sushi you can get with a big glass of Blue Moon. 

Looking forward to: I am looking forward to ending this school year (one more week) and spending all my free time this summer with Croix. I plan on spoiling him rotten. I did make some progress in the nursery (thanks to Kristen) but I am looking forward to getting some free time to shop for the rest of the items I need to complete that room and get it completely ready for C & C. Next on the list is to take over the "man room" and turn it into a play room. Poor John. 

At this point in my pregnancy I will be visiting the doctor every 2 weeks for a check up. Once I hit 35 weeks I will go every week for a check up. The doc says he will not let me delivery past 7/30/15 so the babies will definitely be here by then. I'm still up in the air about whether to try for a natural delivery (and by that I mean vaginal…NOT without meds) or go for a c section. My biggest fears for delivering via vag would be that after one baby comes out I would either A: be too exhausted to deliver the second or B: something happens and I get rushed into an emergency c section to deliver the second baby and have to recover from BOTH horrific procedures. Honestly. I don't know what I am going to opt for at this moment. I want to do what is going to be the safest for them. I am hoping that I will just have a gut feeling when the date gets closer and just do that my heart tells me what would be best and safest option. Either option I choose is going to scare the crap out of me due to what happened the last time with Croix (See his birth story and the post about going back to the hospital at 6 weeks postpartum because placenta was left inside of me---causing me to nearly DIE, literally). 

One more more thing… you know what's coming up dontcha?! THE DREADED "CHECKS"!!!!! See previous blog posts about those too. Nooooot fun when someone sticks their fingers arm inside of your vagina to see if you are dilating or not. I would like to skip that part this time. Think they would go for that? 

I think I will be taking photos more often (possibly every 2 weeks) and updating the blog more frequently. On average twins are born around 35 weeks. It makes me so nervous not knowing exactly when they are coming. If we were only having one child I would be certain that I would have to evict them like I did Croix. But, twins are a whole new ball game. If I deliver before 35 weeks the twins would be considered premie and we would have to deliver at Winnie Palmer because of the NICU unit (praying that doesn't happen). If they come after 35 weeks (considered "term" with twins) I would be able to deliver at Celebration (praying this DOES happen). 

Here are two adorable pictures for your viewing: 

Callie @ 28 weeks

Creux @ 28 weeks